I need to take it easy and realise how far I have come. The only person who can do that is me.
For those who don't know, I have an essay releasing on Friday, and the Ukrainian translation of Prevailed Hope is due to be released very soon, too (though the exact and finer details are unclear at the minute).
Alongside this, I have been working on my first novel — which is currently at about 8,000 words.
As you can see, have a lot on — and the only person who has put that pressure on me is myself.
Though I do like to keep myself busy, I do need to learn to pause and reflect on how far I've come...at least with more intention. This then helps me look to the future, and consider how and where to proceed next.
I give myself a lot to do because, as a creative, I have a lot of ideas — as well as the fact that I like to keep myself busy.
(When is busy enough?!)
Within this, is the feeling that I need to achieve. And further within that is the feeling that I will never achieve enough despite, having already achieved so very much.
Knowing that I have already achieved so much tells me that anxiety and stress is coming from my lack of rest and care for myself.
There is being ambitious, and there is being too hard on myself.
As I keep striving and achieving, I keep putting the bar higher and higher.
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